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lucjky

2005-12-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

to be with you is everything...
that makes the world go round...

so days have been so good lately thank god for that...so much stuff so much happiness and a little sadness. insyallah. so life have been going smoothly even though i hate skool but still yeah have to bear with it for another year. cant wait to go out and have so much fun. well that is all i can update now

i thought

2005-11-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

wei ieeee...im back from the hood of silence and now enduring the pain of skoool and work. but yet it was fun hahaha...so ya alot of things had happen in the past...and ya i finally end up with ahcmad..cute..cant forget the time we went to KL..and times we had dressing up imposing our true self. love this guy so much though i dont show it always but the lucky thing is that he can bear with my attitude..like it..his mum approved of our relationship so do my mum they are happy and yet we intend to share alot of our hopes and dreams togetha even though we have to work hard for wat we want n we need. but thru difficulities and struggles i learn alot and we intend to stick thru each otha by chance. i recently went to KL again with my whole lot of family. we went to stay one nite at colmar tropical. well it was damn great. so great that i barely sleep like 3 in da morning and woke up at 8am just in time to get ready and go for my breakfast with all my family members. than afta one nite at colmar tropicale we went down to KL and spend the nite there. i finally bought the adidas shoe that i want. hahaha too bad my dear pumpkin don have one. heheheh.bought lots of stuff though but worth it for one kind. i love the scenes of yesterday cause i never had an exprience which brought lots of memories together. im in skool rite now haven been active for the first two weeks of skool but i will soon. insyallah with god's blessing. anyway im in computer programmin and im thinkin wat does this subject got to do with my course. damn it i talk to pumpkin and he pity me. im so stress out with lots of things happen in skool. and how i am going to catch up.
i pray
soemtimes i cry
i miss my dad.
i miss him lots.
im so weak inside
i project a strong mind
but yet indeed im weak inside.
my heart is melting
dissolving to liquid
almost evaporatin
weakness i feel.....

wondaful

2005-10-25T16:33:00.000+08:00

i finally found someone...someone to share ugly thoughts with...

i wonda around looking for a place to share with...

in this perfect wheather we find a place together....

how long has it been?

2005-10-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

new style..new vibes....

love wont wait

2005-09-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

trip to orchard road....wahahaha

having dinner at LJS cathay cineleisure

photo of me....
me n partna in action...

well it has been quite sumtime i haven update my blog so yeah i take off recently with amad to watch The longest yard..weee was it great than we catch the preview of four brothers.. well it was interesting ....had a great time with amad...watchin people their style n stuff it was fun though...so we went home at around 1+.... took a cab hahaha...than at hum i download four brothers....n some otha video clips...to put in my hp...n90 da kua..bnile n91 lak nak kua..hahaha k la...yesterday went Jb bought loads of dvd...hahaha hell it was fun...k yeah and this is da shoe i design

okie tat's all....update soon

....blahhh

2005-09-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

rockstar......................................
my masterpiece.....

went back to bnss...whoa..a great start..misses my teachers...miss my skool mates... wat a change...exams comin...started learnin...im so tired..i want to sleep..and smokee..rahim email me..sayin he has safely arrive in egypt...i miss him so...he will come back only next year on june or july..la..borin gitu...but hope he can cope well with the syllabus over there insyallah

pic

2005-08-30T08:33:00.000+08:00

my blazer should be blue...but it intends to change color to purple wat a pity..

INCREDIBLE....

posin outside Crossover shop at JB had a great tym...

..i need u baby...

2005-08-23T09:03:00.000+08:00

mesmerizin u here with me...i couldnt help but just to smile and love you....though we are startin afresh yet we still try...da past is d past it will remain...thru tat we learn how to love... and im learnin it everytym im with you...i will always care about you...i will do wateva it takes to give you da care you need. we start it slow...i like it like tat...i will try my best to make you happy.. and not worry alot about me...cause tat i believe makes us bond stronger...

..memories...

2005-08-20T16:26:00.000+08:00

happiness...i felt...with you guys
makes life...wondaful for me..

...i make for da both of you...

shikin n amad...

okie finally yan finish doin his airport pass da tak yah kena escort dia lagi...hahaha so we can just go straight to work...togetha...i miss him though..later goin to work with shikin...leceh kan bawa helmet...malam nak kua lagi...ler....ade jer plan every weekends night but i just love it cause tat makes me happy...bein with yan and my other companion...

.....err...

2005-08-16T09:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a nitemare at work..
shitness brought me...
extreme anger...
luckily at the end of the work
baby brought laughther in me.
u're so sweet..
u melt me....
u wanted to send me to skool
but i resist...
u msg me in da mornin to make sure im awake...
u really care about me...
im thankful to allah to have you

yesterday too my bro finishes his one year ns at Thailand
and he came back i don know if he bought for me some shirts...
niway i feel like takin off this friday to go JB with yan
do his motor stuff than go some shoppin
i don know la..
he's da man ur lady follow wherever u lead me to...
i mish you

baby.....

2005-08-15T14:16:00.000+08:00

....da day i spent da whole nite with you...
da time was rite...
da surroundings too...
...the sea across us....
the wind blowing...
im bless to be with you...
....u're gentle...touches..
tickle my emotions..
...i just wish we could have more...
but time resist...
...i could sense your love...
i could feel your warmth...
...i've fallen for you..
i really do..

had a great time with yan at marina south....went there straight afta work...
ohh...i wish we could have thos ekind of times togetha always...weee....so days have been going great...work is ok insyallah skool too...trying my best to catch up with stuff...i think i can insyallah....i miss my dady...

...happyness...

2005-08-10T10:36:00.000+08:00

da wonderer
...blurb...blurb

......so into you....

...rockstars...
missin art patna
.................companionship............

da day we went to kamal's place and visit his baby so adorable...had fun with my companion anyway national..all of us went to saufron and eat and slack till 6 in da mornin..how tirin it was but fun it is...missin my baby..

....we...

2005-08-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

i mish you dear i truly am...
im glad to have u...
i really do..
everytym u send me hum...
i hug you titely...
........................................
on da 6th august me,yan,amad,shikin,ana and ayim went to kamal's house to visit his newborn baby.....look alot like him....than we went plaza singapura and grab a bite..acoompanied ayim to buy his digicam, and some window shoopin at heeren....at nyt yan park his bike at my place so afta work he send me home..
and he went home...i miss you...
yesterday we went to chill at tampines starbucks...it was me,yan,amad and shikin...we had fun....hahaha i love you guys....than we went to work...too bad amad n shikin have to take da bus..tu la gi amik license siang2 tak nak... hehe but afterall...the time togetha was fun even though it was short...
today im in skool rite now thinkin abt my studies...i want to start my revision soon but im workin..insyallah i can cope...i have to work for some stuff...
hahaha only we know y...
i miss my *sugaree huney*

.....im speechless...

2005-08-02T09:28:00.000+08:00

me..n yan....
..amad n me..
okie da pic we went to jb...quite fun even though there were three of us....had fun...ok...me n amad we r actually partners....not in relationship but in arts..we both like to design..so ya...me n yan we had some connection...but it wil still take time,..insyallah. afta all he did to me..sending me hum fetch me from home....was there when i am damn tired. im lucky to have known you. still have a long way to go...but time will come. im designin your helmet..or is it mine? i don know...just hope you like the work me n amad will be doin....take care you pretty boy.. miss you

2005-07-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

my shoe...

2005-07-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

my stuff

.....maybe baby...

2005-07-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

im back..after relaxation n a break..
just now went down to town bought parking lot pimp
some beads n beads necklace..
yesterday went johor n bought some
blazer n a long sleeve shirt..
with amad..n yan...
than afta work...lepak at simpang bedok..
and eat n chat..luckily yan was willing to fetch me from home to work
to simpang bedok and da sweet thing is that he sent me home..
so sweet of him..and da way i tie my helmet was not tight
and he did some adjustment to it..
hahaha....amad was ok with yan sendin me home..
he is willin that yan send me home...
so yeah at simpang i cant forget wat happen..
a married couple fought..
and da guy actually slap da woman i think like five six times..
and shouted...like a mad man..
dman i was kind of scared n it makes me think abt my past..
nearly cried but amad n yan comfort me..
cheer me up.....luckily it worked..
and my serving..i didnt finish it due to da fight...
macam2....
anyway i will update some pics of my own creativity..
for now im doin ok...
and goin strong in life..
alhamdulilah....

2005-07-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

...plain me

2005-07-02T08:42:00.000+08:00

...attitude....?

............

2005-06-20T13:39:00.000+08:00

went to skool today...
damn...should not have wear my slip ons...
it's like common everywhere...
damn it...damn.....
i think i wll be wearin my le coq sportif shoe soon...
errr.....and melanie like my mTV vintage tee..
hhahaha...kinda cute..
zach wore da air jordan..
kinda comfy...and cute too...
.....im sleepy tired...
if only people could understand da conditin i am in
.....skool starts at 9 and ends at 5....
staight to work at 6 till 2am...
than back to skool again....
there is no enjoyment for me...
but sometimes i don regret living the hard life first...
cause tat makes me a better person..
a much more responsible person...
and..yeah i cried..yesterday...
reminisicin about my past....
wat i did to my bro, my mum./...
things i wish i could have turn back the hands of time

....float....in..

2005-06-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

got some money from my work...
save some of it....
sometimes have to scarifice it for my friends...
but it's ok...
so yeah.....
bought a pair of jeans, vintage blazer, some spray paints...
for my plain tee...designing them weee...
and a le coq sportif shoe...
but i want the pony shoe...too...
and also some other vintage sweater...
have to wait though...
anyway without realising...
my bday is a few weeks away...
too caught up with work...
errr....skool such a drag...hate skool..
im just tired afta saving maybe thousand plus i will
just work on weekends...
i think soon i will work on weekends..
i have save enough...
and not to forget my trip to KL...afta my bday..
weeee....my bro comin hum from bangkok...
lots of stuff...but above all...
i truly misses my dad so much...
i cried....

2005-06-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

...where is da......

wewe....

2005-06-14T09:23:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i've update
just damn busy with my work n skool
and havin some otha problems too
financially...n emotionally....
been quite sometime i have not went out..
im just too stress up need some peace....
misses shoppin spree...
and some otha movies...
oh yeah really miss it..so damn mux...
miss ya too baby...

zzzzzzzz

2005-05-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

read his blog...
haha...his ex comin back to him..
let he decide...
who he wants..
or i shoud say let fate decide...
havin sore throat...
errrr it's hurtin me...
feel like i want to take a knife..
and cut through my throat...
haha if only i could do that..
....so work is okie...
and skool...i have to take Construction IT...
be learnin about dismantling and fixin computers..
kinda interestin..and anotha thing is that i will be da only gal...
hahaha...can get help from the guys...
but i will try my best..insyallah....
i think tat's it...

love wont wait

2005-05-27T11:50:00.000+08:00

I love you love, but I'm thinkin' 'bout leaving
So far you treated me so bad
I love you love, but I'm thinkin' 'bout leaving
So far you treated me so bad

I call my baby to tell her I'm on my way
Call her 'til I pass we going out today
It was a beautiful Sunday
I had plans on going to watchin the matinee
But as soon as I step to the door
She hit me with some stuff that I just couldn't ignore
That she had to up and leave'
Cause I was a fool foolin her on what she need
Check it, yo from my point of view it was kinda whack
She said even when we're reminiscing there's no bringing it back
And for her, it's really beyond that
Talkin about she been through emotional combat

All the years that I been backY
ou were never around
And now, love won't wait(It's like that now, oh, it's like that now)
Let's stop all my love to you
Baby, I'm through with you'
Cause now, love won't wait(It's like that now, oh, it's like that now)

Yo, Will, that's kinda whack, I know how you be feelin
My girl's also trippin about the same reason'
Cause we out for two seasons on the road makin G's and
I figured it out these women there's no pleasin
Yo, Will, I feel the pain, that you're going through
She got you stuck on a yam and she's splatting too
Plotting on leaving you, yo, are you feeling cool
And if you're not you can always hang with the crew

I call my baby to tell her I'm on my way
Call her 'til I pass we going out today
It was a beautiful Sunday
I had plans on going to watchin the matinee

And she dissed you, up and left you
Packed her bags and went and upset

She was like "I'm leaving" (Oh it's like that, now)
"I'm leaving" (She was always like that)

Check it, but from my point of view it was kinda whack
She said even when we're reminiscing there's no bringing it back
And for her, it's really beyond that
Talkin about she been through emotional combat

love you love, but I'm thinkin' 'bout leaving

love wont wait......
....love just wont wait....

lookin on da brightside

2005-05-25T10:17:00.000+08:00

sentosa was great....
took alot of pictures..
designin them soon...
after sentosa i was alone..
went to pasir ris park..
and took pictures too..
than off to work..
yesterday afta skool.
went to JB...
bought only three shirts..
and a slipper..
didnt buy any shoes...
seems to be da same..
but maybe next pay i'll be buyin
ADIO shoe.
and now IM dreadful sick...
my head is really makin me weak..
i cant walk...afraid of faintin...
i cant eat...afraid of vomittin..
i just cant..please god..
let me suffer...
for good will.

i need to find some peace

2005-05-20T12:38:00.000+08:00

i feel like i want to run to the forest and screammm'
i feel like i want to go to the sea...
and stay in there...
i feel like i want to go to the sky...
and fly...in peace...
i wish i could do that...
i wish...
i wish....
but i cant...
he say cant....
problems...rollin....
tumbling....piling..
i cant solved them...
i just cant....
please give me strength
to overcome all this obstacles..
please...give me guidance..
without...you..
i'm no one........

..one u love is a sinner...

2005-05-19T11:47:00.000+08:00

been havin bad and horrible days..
lately...
at work...myself..my feelings..
had a f***ed time at work..
with my aunt..
wat's her prob...
myself...
i don know...
why? im feelin down?
why cant i be happy...
my feelings...
why u making me blue?
please stop this..
2day will be goin sentosa at night..
havin chalet...for straight 4 days..
cant wait to relax and....
have some peace in my mind...
i just want to be a child rite now..
where i wont have to worry...
or even care about people's feelings...
or my feelings...
just want to run on a never ending..
no problem..no feelings route...

2005-05-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

...opposite me...

2005-05-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

...my next dream phone...da last and only..

2005-05-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

....paTHETIC ME...

....lleesss.....

2005-05-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

...havin sleepless nite...
....restless on my bed...
thinkin...of you....
da beauty....
....da style....
.....da spirit....
you captured..me...
make me hook.....
....................................

.......cruu....

2005-05-05T04:50:00.000+08:00

wee....im back..
still cant sleep though...
did some desing..just somethin
new...and diffferent
hope it's something do comment la..

...........................
been days...have not seen you
my mind keep...thinkin...
keep hopin....
keep..going...
don know how you have been doing...
just da sight of you can make me smile...
patiently waitin...
under da world..
so big...i can't stand...
yet...i keep lookin....
knowin someday...
you will know...
how i feel................................
......................................................
if i cant
if i cant have you...
baby i wouldn't want to be with no one else...
if i cant
if i cant have you....
i would ratha be by myself....

2005-05-05T03:48:00.000+08:00

.....depression.confusion.....

2005-05-04T04:10:00.000+08:00

which one????

2005-05-04T02:33:00.000+08:00

anotha design

empty

2005-05-02T12:36:00.000+08:00

have you ever feel....
abandoned.....lonely...
and troubled...
when your mind cant seems to work..
when you make mistakes...
everyone is blaming you for it...
..and yet u walk away....
thinkin its like an ordinary day...
wake up in da mornin...
no lights is shinin on me...
....just dark background....
i'm sittin, and wonda about da future...
will it be dark like this?
will there be a glimpse of light..
appearin...
questions in my mind...
it seems to be unanswered...
i walk along...alone...
thru this endless road....
.........................................
i suddenly stop...
and look around....
it is when i saw you....
but i walk away a little.....
and i saw you smile...
....your smile.....
........................................
it is not just a smile...
a smile than is special...
and it make me think like
a mile....
wat it means....
.....but still...i haven found da answers
.......can you answer it for me?.......
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dinner

2005-05-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

cik mat wedding was okie..
da bride look alike...
like late aunty liza...
but still...they are fated to be togetha...
all da best..
may allah bles them with happines..
and endless love....
so meet my cuzzies...
and my nephew and niece...
well...they are doin good...
danial in republic poly..
didnt saw kak aisyah...
meet arifiin...da one closest with me..
so afta dinner...went out...
meet my cuzz arifin...
lepak lepak...chat abt life..
his attach...all da best dude...
hehehe....
overall da food was ok...
and moment of togetherness..with my
late dad's family...

oLdiEs

2005-04-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch,
Alone. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me,
I'll be coming home, wait for me.
Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger, hunger!, for your love,
For love. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.

watch GHOST....and the ending was touching...
with the song that played...
nearly went tears....
but i control...
baby bought a parfum for me...
thank you so much...
da smell is damn...errr...
arghhh....cant say it..
suducing..
maybe...
okie work is okie..
saturday im havin my off day..
goin to hotel...
around town..
have dinner head back home and catch a movie...
okie that's all

2005-04-29T03:05:00.000+08:00

...colors of my life....

2005-04-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

stitch this pic

2005-04-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

oh my face

buzzie

2005-04-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

here are da four design...
which i have been busy doin..
didnt sleep well doin them...
just love it...
kind of runnin out of memory...
but still i want to do some more
design....
give me time...

2005-04-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

PuNkEd Up

2005-04-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

DisTortEd Pieces...Of My LiFe

2005-04-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

Veins...comin out...

2005-04-25T14:22:00.000+08:00

design...

tiredddnesss

2005-04-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

weeee...im back from work...
im fallin a little sick though...
baby is worried...
pity you dear...hehehehe
but still i love you dear..
for givin me your care....
so bought my stuff already...but have not open it..
did some design....
have abunch of them but this is da one i like best...
i miss u baby...
don know when can we meet...
maybe soon....
saturday im takin off..though...
have some dinner at some hotel...
errr.....k shikin and ahmad are officially..
a couple...
let them be though..
hehehe....still my baby is da best...
miss ya crtazy jokes...honey..

im sleepy

2005-04-22T03:23:00.000+08:00

im back again....
went Jb with baby...
bought for me shirt and bermudas...
thank you...like your beenie..
buyin one today..
goin Jb again with my friends..
not bringin mux...
just buy some stuff...
not sure wat..
but...just see...
miss my baby...
had great time with you baby,...
oh yeah i almost forget...
my results...
i pass all...
alhamdulilah....
thank you allah...
appreciate all your good doings...
i pass my principle of law...
i pass my theory of economics...
i pass my business supervisory and management
i pass my internet and e-business...
i pass my accounts..
i pass....i pass...

"it was meant to be.....beautiful"

weirdness

2005-04-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

this few days...
have not been havin enuf rest...
doin graphics in my laptop...
irregular meal times...
lost my appetite...
havin migrain..
feelin weak...
start vomittin....
cant control...

newww...

2005-04-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

well....today is my lucky day
mama found a hp...
samsung....
don know wat to say much....
im kind of tired though...
havin few hours of sleep...
designin graphics in my laPTOP....
im havin migrain...

2005-04-12T12:22:00.000+08:00

new shoe......

2005-04-12T12:21:00.000+08:00

brokennnnnn

wee.e...

2005-04-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

work was great...everythin was okie
bought the cd i've wanted...
HOT HOT HEAT....
love all da songs...especially....
goodnite goodnite..
and middle of nowhere...
love it lots....
miss my baby...
miss my family...
still have three more days to complete
my account...
than close it..
thrusday goin to ROM
kamal gettin married...
err cant wait..
k got to go..
hve fun though

2005-04-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

art quality

2005-04-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

candid

2005-04-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

"Goodnight, Goodnight"

It's not enough to hear me say you've won
You only wanted me for having fun
But now I think you've gone and had your way
And left me with a pile of bills to pay
I can't even rewind the tape machine
To listen to your drunken reasoning
So here it is - your final lullaby

Goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing meYou're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So Goodnight

I've given up on social niceties
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys
Along with all your records I can't stand
You never even listen to any one of them
You're never gonna drag me out again
With all the people that were never ever even your friends
So here it is - your final lullaby

Goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

A little bit of rain I'd say is fair
But when it starts to thunder they all stare
This isn't goodnight, this is goodbye...

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me You're embarrassing you
Goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life

Goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me You're embarrassing you
So Goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

a song that reminds me..
love it lots....
yesterday went to orchard bought some mag
and also a sweater and shirt....
worth it though...
goin out later with mama
gonna eat and do some stuff...
that's all for now..

JB was fun

2005-04-08T12:26:00.000+08:00

Jb was great...
had a fun and enjoyable time
weeeee.....it seem wonderful..
i bought three shirt for myself
and a bag....
next pay than will be buyin shoes...
the rest of them bought shoess...
hehehehe.....cant wait for the next pay...
ate pizza...it was ayim's treat....
save duit sikit..
hehehe....
maybe later im goin out
not so sure where...but just sightseein...
k got to go...

some phrases

2005-04-06T12:26:00.000+08:00

tersebut al kisah....
si duyung jelita....
puteri tunggal raja samudra...
bercinta dengan nelayan tua....
....................

hantaran puteri gunung warisan..
bukan zamrud bukan manikam..
bukan emas dan berlian
tujuh talam....
hati kuman
air mata anak dara..
tujuh tempayan...
kesemuanya bukan tuntutan..
jembatan emas juga bukan..
yang dipinta...
hanyalah...
kesetiaan....
kerelaan.....dan
keikhlasan.....

isnt is nice....
hearin malay dikir...
so unique yet soulful...
about past life...
remind me of my past in dikir...
hahahaha....kinda fun..
2mrw im goin JB with my work frens...
and im da only...babe...
wahahahaha.....cool...
i have nothin much to update...just this..though.
k tytes

you

2005-04-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

i cant get you off my mind
it's you i've been thinkin....i cant deny
i sincerely miss you
i really do...
my thoughts were completely over you
and no one else..
my every move...
you will be watchin..
my every breathe....
you will be inhalin...
we have a strong chemistry...
let us find out the mystery...

featuresssss....

2005-04-04T14:25:00.000+08:00

missin you 24/7...still missin
thinkin...mesmerizin....dreamin...
knowin it wont stop....yes it wont
don worry i wont go nowhere
im still here with my arms wide open
i look out da wondow...
rain is fallin smoothly...
that is how my feelins will go to u
don worry about your features baby...
i adore you i still am...

"aint wastin my deep sensual kisses with a stranger"

weeeeee....

2005-04-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

keep wondarin when keep wondarin
never knew when it's gonna end
i keep my head up high
ignorin tears falin down from my eyes
keep movin and just crusin
thru wateva obstacles......
i've just survived......

2005-04-02T12:35:00.000+08:00

new hairdo costin $25

2005-04-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

with my new hairdo

spanish raggae....

2005-04-01T10:59:00.000+08:00

k i m here again diggin in this blog of mine
so yeah work was okie had fun though
but i miss doin toilet maybe tmrw..
i will be in team 72....to do Toilet
hahahah finally i miss it..
so yeah for the moment i'm listenin to raggae....
or should i said raggaeton...
welll kind of groovy...
make me wanna dance...
weeee....im dancin i love it..
so yeah my friends at work been askin where i got the songs from..
opppsss..sorie wont tell ya hahahaha
sooner later you wil found out yourself..
this comin pay i get about 400+....
errr....pay my bill 80...than 200 for license..
the rest for shoppin....weeee..
i cant eait..goin JB with my collegue..
after gettin pay...insyallah...
k i think that's it...

im here

2005-03-31T11:54:00.000+08:00

soie been dumpoin this junkie of mine
kinda bz lately with work and stuff...
missin my baby n my family..
but work was okie..enjoy every moment.
kinda tiring but yet worth it...
i have nothin much to say though
i m just blank in mind..
and empty in words..
that's it for now...

"love you more than a billion dollar.....love you more than many pretty faces"

ermmm

2005-03-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

well well well im back again...weee mish updatin my blog so yeah i went to jb twice in a week. well that's nice hahaha...bought two pair of shoes, 3 pair of shirts from my baby, a stussy bag, a pair of specs and wat else? errmmm no idea?....it was fun and an enjoyable day. well tuesday was hectic im havin my theory of economics exam on wednesday and i've only atudied like four chapters...but i did study a little more till i didnt manage to have 6 hours of sleepin but only like 2 hours of sleepp errr....my eyes are heavy and im left with Principles of law on tuesday 2mrw i can start readin my notes and monday i can finalize everythin insyallah. i have nothin much to update though just pity my baby's dad. but well dad they are like tat no offence. im goin to work later..errr...pening kepala...i heard this song im addictedt to it...

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

2005-03-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

my shoes collection

2005-03-13T14:19:00.000+08:00

RAGHAV LYRICS

"No No"
No need to say a word
Yeah girl it's so clear
Ooh I can read through those tears
That man just stole you from me
So what you're 'bout to say is my biggest fear
Last thing I needed to hear is
That you no longer love me
So today before you do what you've got to do
Can I make one last request of you
I need just one more night without the truth

So please say...No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me
No need to say a word

Yeah girl it's so clear
Ooh I can read through those tears
That man just stole you from me
So what you're 'bout to say is my biggest fear
Last thing I needed to hear is
That you no longer love me
So today before you step up to break my heart
Before you start picking my world apart
Just know that I will never stop you
I've been where you are
Before you do what you've got to do
Can I make one last request of you
I need just one more night without the truth

So please say...No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me

We used to spend our nights just dreaming alone
I guess that those days are gone
And I've forever lost you
I never thought that you would hurt me like that
I guess there's no turning back

Ooh girl I'll always want you
So today before you step up to break my hear
tBefore you start picking my world apartJ
ust know that I will never stop you
I've been where you are
Before you do what you've got to do
Can I make one last request of you
I need just one more night without the truth

So please say...No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me

No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of

No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me
No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me
No no, no no
Tell me how I got it wrong
No one could just come along
And take you from me
No no, no no
Tell me I'm losing my mind
Promise when you close your eyes
You're only dreaming of me

2005-03-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

here we r again......

ohhh.....i love you mom...

2005-03-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

k weee...i had da happiest day ever...
firstly ya...i work and it was fun....
i had loads of fun with my teammatess...
oh gosh they were so funnyy...
i laugh till my last breathe....errrr...i cant stand it..
than besides that they were cooperative..
i just love workin with them..
despite their...noisiness...
they are indeed the best i ever had..
than when i went home...
oh gosshh...i really love my mom..
she found an mp3.....yahoooooooo
i have two ...oh gosh..
da mp3 is iRiver....which was
recommended by the salesman when i bought the creative..
well the mp3 have voice recorder, 256mb...
and the files...i can simplified it...
oh goossshhhh...wat my mum says it's true..
cause watever i want she can either find it
or i will buiy it myself...
yet i enjoy da day...i lov eit so much..
baby didnt message me..maybe..
just busy with his proj...
orite..that's it...thank you...

2005-03-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

wat...r we tryin...to do...

2005-03-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

me n anak patung....hehehe

2005-03-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

i llurveeee...themmm

2005-03-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

here we are again....bestest of all

2005-03-09T20:11:00.000+08:00

mee....

weee..weeee

2005-03-05T11:25:00.000+08:00

weeei...weii....errr work was okie..hahaha finally yan takd...senyap sikit but hakem lak...jadi pengganti nyer...errr....so get my pay for 4 days...150+ boleh lah...sape nak kasi kan...paying off my bill first cause my previous pay still left some more so manager to pay off my bill okie after that settle...don have to think about any worries about money just that i have to think about next week...which day should i work..either i work for four days of five days...errrmm i'm not really sure...let me decide later..so ya supposedly today me n my old schooolmates should go out together..but im lazy..im workin just tired though...arghhhh...err i feel bad ah.. cause i didnt even wish nadira happy birthday...am i a bad fren? or i should get for her somethin? i don know..hope so...i try if my budget is a little more...maybe i can cause i still ahven get ct's presant than nurul's too..n nad...errr....banyak nyer org nyer birthday...
confused....and just...worriedd..k la that's it..have to go ...tytess....misssin baby

sleeepppin in

2005-03-03T11:12:00.000+08:00

Postal Service»
Sleeping In
Last week i had the strangest dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where there never any mystery on who shot john f kennedy
It was just a man with something to prove
Slightly bored and severely confused
He steadied his rifle with his target in the center
And became famous on that day in november

Dont wake me i plan on sleeping
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping in
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping in

And then last night i had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in november

Dont wake me i plan on sleeping (now we can swim any day in november)
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping in
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping in
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping in
Dont wake me i plan on sleeping OOo oOo oOo

now im in skol already slept at around 3+ yesterday....err so tiring..chatted with baby than do some assessment for IAC...arghhhh alot of stuff need to do.....penat seh....so yeah luckily baby printed my stuff..hehehe thnk you baby..so later i end at around 2+ don know if the peeps want to go and have lunch..well it's kinda sad cause wwe have to be apart...arghhh....again... but still ermmm not so sure wat to say though...hehehehe so yeah hopefully in class we can play da video cam cause i cannot put the video in my laptop...errrr...so sickenin seh...arghhhhh.....my uncle lost the cd...sakitkan hati jer...imma waitin ffor my frens...don feel like workin today... but my mum wants me to work..errr malas nyer.....bam bam...hehehehe so yeah i think im goin to meet my frens at the libraary

2005-03-03T02:38:00.000+08:00

INTRO
I said if we never get a chance to be together
go with Jah, Tanya loves ya, wha me seh?
Hook
It's a pity you already have a wife
and me done have a man inna mi life
rudeboy it's such a pity
I say it is such a pity you already have yuh wife
And me have a one man inna mi life
rudeboy it is a pity, mm mm mm
Verse 1
I woulda like one of these mornings to wake up and find
your face on a pillow lying right next to mine
I woulda cut out the partying the smoking and the rum
and buss a extra wine and make we seal up a son
well everytime mi fantasize me see your lips me see your eyes
Your trigger finger do something a lef the rudegirl hypnotized
For you it's just a thing, just another little fling
But for me this is Heaven and the angel them a sing
(Repeat hook)
Verse 2
Fi buck you up inna public and cant even touch
It really fuck me up because me check fi you so much
The respect weh mi have fi your woman fi your kids
believe me rudeboy mi criss, a nuh matey this
who knows? maybe one day the world will be evolved enough
we'll share you in a civilized manner between the two of us
But until then I woulda love see you again,
Me know we have fi play it by the stupid rules of men
(repeat intro)
Verse 3
So meet me round the corner, avoid Mitzy and Lorna
You know them a two of the biggest informer
I'm not starving for sex no, nah bawl out 'next!' no
but the way how yuh flex really pique my interest yo
The you weh people see a no the you weh me loving
And the you weh deh with me go much deeper than skin
I dont know exactly what it is you're feeling
But I wish this was a permanent thing
(repeat hook)
Verse 4
Me know seh you belong to she, you know seh me belong to him
Me wouldn't want you dis your queen, me woulda never dis mi king
But when yuh play pon mi riddim and when me feel your base a swing
You lef me inna turmoil, you have me head a spin
It really mek me sad fi haffi waste so much water,
I think the two o' we can mek a beautiful daughter
but it would be selfish to an innocent little youth
Fi bring her come and cannot tell her the truth
We have fi tell her the truth

i love thiss...sognnggg

weee.....

2005-03-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me
That you’ll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever, baby
[chorus]
Well, I don’t want to be lonely no more
I don’t want to have to pay for this
I don’t want another lover at my door
It’s just another heartache on my list
I don’t wanna be angry no more
You do know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don’t wanna be lonely anymore
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Now it’s hard for me
When my heart’s still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it’s harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can’t we just try
[chorus]
I don’t want to be lonely no more
I don’t want to have to pay for this
I don’t want another lover at my door
It’s just another heartache on my list
I don’t wanna be angry no more
You do know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don’t wanna be lonely anymore
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh...
What if I was good to you
What if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise
What if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life
To find some way to stand beside you
[chorus]
I don’t want to be lonely no more
I don’t want to have to pay for this
I don’t want another lover at my door
It’s just another heartache on my list
I don’t wanna be angry no more
You do know I who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don’t wanna be lonely anymore
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
I don’t wanna be lonely anymore
I don’t wanna be lonely no more
I don’t wanna be lonely no more
I don’t wanna be lonely anymore

had fun with my baby hehehehe....miss ya...went to esplanade...errr...pictures..and lots of otha stuff i did...hahaha kinda funny though...so yeah skool was tirin..luckily we have finish da IAC powerpoint..i don know about da video..will it be okike....hehehehehe k la...i think that's it..im sleeppppy thouhg...errrrrrr

2005-03-02T09:11:00.000+08:00

okie yesterday will be da first and da last time
i will be goin to that red light district area
how eerie it can be
with my video cam....f*** im scared
feel uncomfortable...n its damn hot
it is so damn pack that i have no air to breath
i feel cramp and suffocated...
ii wonda how they can last it long there
i regret i regret....
welll wat i say its true....
i cant stand it...
im sick of it...
im feeling down rite now...
the surroiundings is still in my mind...
please....i want to stop thinkin about this...
the road was 6m apart.....
loads of staring...especially on us....
i had to video cam the surroundings
and guess wat....it is a nitemare
i cant sleep well...
da features are still in my eye
it is an eye opener for me..
of how diffferent age group struggle for...$$$

today i need to finilazi my projects....
loads of stuff i need to do....
pleasee....someone help me...
i don know what's wrong with my video cam..
why it can work...
i have to make a new one i think..
i will do it later....miss....my baby...yet
im so boredd....

orrriiitteeyyyyyy

2005-02-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

yeaahhh i have finish doin my plaw retest
hahahaha i can pass fairly well
every facts is included in da answer booklet
errrr....i'm stomach is damn freakin hurtin
i need to do my p law assignment
errrr...alot of stuff i need to do
damn it..i'm damn freaking sick
feel like faintin, arhh..this scorchin pain
so 2mrw in da mornin i'll hand in my assignment
and head back to grandmama's place where
we will head to KL
hahhahahaha.......
afta this meetin my waa frens to do da project
most of da facts are with them
i'm just doin my part for the pictures and presentation
argghhhh....loads of stuff need to hand in
i'm sick i really need a break...

hahehea...

2005-02-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

yeah i'm back from skool at home
okie yeah skool was stressfull...errrr..
as usual loads of last minutes stuff needs attention
tomorrow i'm havin my retest on P LAW
i don know if i can study..
i try my best to do revision...
insyallah..i will try my best i'll try
2mrw i'm going to take da nite shift...
than friday off to...KL...yahooooo
and before that i need to do my law srticles..
2mrw afta my WAA i'll find articles...
and go to my grandmama house to print it..
so i have to finalise my summary of the law report..
issshhh....alot of stuff i need to do..
but the important one is to study...for my retest..
than 2mrw i will finalise my p law project..
and submit it on friday....morning...
feel like buyin a new tee from th efair..but i'm not sure
arghh...haven make up my mind yet..
let just see 2mrw how's da condition gonna be...
i'll end it here...tytesss

errrmmmm....nice songg...

2005-02-21T22:15:00.001+08:00

RELAKU PUJUK

ku dikejer bayang bayang resah
bila hatimu masih tak berubah
enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
belaian cintaku ini

aku bukan lelaki (perempuan) yang tewas
bisa mengambang walau ku ditolak
biar diuji kanan dan kiri
kau kan tetap ku miliki

chorus
tiada lafaz yang lebih anggung
kalimah cintamu
yang ku tunggu tunggu
biar jasadku yang menanggung
permainan darimu
relaku pujuk

janganlah kau salahkan aku
terus memburu menawan cintamu
daku percaya sedikit masa
kau kecundang akhirnya

usahlah kau bersedih
dihadapanmu aku hadir
memendam resah dan curiga dari hatimu
apakah kali ini
bisa kau bertolak dan berlari
setelah aku menanamkan azimatku

chorus2x

biar jasadku yang menanggung
permainan darimu
relaku pujuk

arghhh....

2005-02-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

weee....i'm here again in auto cad room
errr...pain achin....in my stomach..
yeap..my first day...n i'm glad...
my mum wont be damn hell worried about me...
be goin to work to take my pay...
missin my baby...every minute everyday
so yeah i have to do my law project..
loads of case studies need to refer
i'm damn tired.....didnt get enuf sleep...
need to cuddle my pillow...n doze off...
meetin my cuzzie later....take pay togetha..
ohhh....i love my combos...
i'm eatin them...hehehehe....
okie okie....i had enuf...dude...
got to go...hehehehe.....tityeeee

oh...weee...

2005-02-20T14:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back to this hood i call home...
i just lurve bein at home...
feel protected secure and comfortable..
okie so work was okie..
had fun at work with my crazy teammates..
they are da best that's all i can say
oh....ya i've heard da news from my cuzz
his dad is in da hospital..
wonda how's he doin...i'll visit him soon
don know when..but insyallah..
2day i'm fastin....so got to buy loads of drinks..
i'll be damn freakin thirsty...
but it's okie...2mrw my pay day..
can i get around 500? maybe not so sure...
i'll be so god damn happy if i have tat kind of amount...
i think i can....saving most of it for da KL trip...
errrr...cant wait....
now i want to stop treating my frens stuff
or lendin them cash...
cause i need to pamper myself...
with loads of luxuries...
arghhh....i love that word....ohh nicee...
k yeah i miss wearin my slipper...from blood bros
2mrw i will wear it to skool....
i'll end it here...lytes baby...

workin...

2005-02-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

da place where i pour out my emotions...
so yeah goin to work soon..
i just can't wait to work in da pub..soon
7 bucks per hour...woo i love it..
my uncle is da manager..ermm...hehehe
i haven get any sleep...but i cant resists it..
so yeah had some workout session
and had a quick shower...
pray for a while..
and yet i haven pray for isyak..
okie i will before goin to work..
i can't wait to meet...my cuzzie..
n frens from my team...hahaha
they are da best...love them...
my hair is a lil long....gonna dye them soon
at KL...arghh..cant wait n trim a lil
keep it long...ohhh...sexyyyyy...
k i have to go now...
errrr....2mrw dian's comin finally....
doin my projects...miss my bitches a lot though
k k that's enough..

hahahaha.......

2005-02-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

ain't goin to blab much
i just can't wait...
to make da journey
across the causeway....
i can't wait...i just cant wait
to get to KL...arghhh...
can't resists...da temptation..
wanna buy lots of shoes...
n some apparels...
getting pay this weekend..
saving it for da trip...
arggghh.....i'm thinkin abt it..
okie okie stop it..
my projects are due..and yet
i still haven do..
but i will soon...
my theory of economics...
and Business supervisory n management..
it's achin my mind....
2mrw is Asyura day
got to fast and pray...
hope allah bless me..
that's all i have to say..
titesss...

cad..cad...

2005-02-07T14:11:00.000+08:00

heellooo...i'm back kinda bored rite in auto cad room....errrr....i feel like i wana work today...i think i can make it to work ah...okie rugby was damn bad..but i met my old coach..OKS..hahaha miss havin trainin sessions with him..but he' good..i know his tactics...switches...switches...alpha special..and alpha..hahahah now i'm in skool saw....hahaha..nvm nvm...so yeah ct was late and so was dian..but i just wait...okie okie..i get back later and update again...gotta do my auto cad.

crime?? work?? family?

2005-02-04T11:18:00.000+08:00

elo...im here again eatin oranges...hahaha...
previous days...went to da skool library with my frens
lazin around..when i found a book a brout true crime
seems interesting so i took it...
browsing da pages...readin abt rapist...
damn was it ugly....when it took place...
da way da victim been held..n such
errrrr.....a horrible scence...
i borrowed da book and i'm engrossed in readin it...
till now i have not stopped readin....k tat's abt da book
yesterday work was tirin...but b4 tat
didi from my course too thought it was cool
but they never knew how tiring it is....
just to earn 35 bucks a day...for 7 hours...
i would not recommend my frens to take this job..
and yet she wanted to try it..
i work as an aircraft inflight cleaner....
is tat nice? i wonder...just because you get in an aircraft..
wahahahahaha.....2mrw is my friendly match
kinda tired..my thigh achin..i have to go..
been lazy these few days...missin my babies...
goin to grandma house and see my babies..
ohh...just need hugs n kisses from them...
errrrr....maybe brin them to da playground for a while..
and have some fun with them....cant wait...
that's it for now..see ya soon...

2005-02-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in the things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse.
Believes that he is not receiving his share--that he is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that he is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave him without any sense of emotional involvement.Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him."
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads him to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.
Willing to participate and to allow himself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Believes that he is not receiving his share--that he is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that he is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave him without any sense of emotional involvement.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.

Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to allow anything to influence his point of view.
Believes that he is not receiving his share--that he is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that he is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave him without any sense of emotional involvement.Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. His refusal to admit this leads to his adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.

can't deny...tat i'm happy

2005-02-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

i don know....but this feelin appear from nowhere
it was such a relieved i'm glad it's over
i can't bear no more...yet i'm smilin
i started laughin in da lift....
i started laughin...again
i feel...for da first time luck come my way
i'm happy....i can't deny it
i'm jus thinkin abt dat person...
who is always in my mind...
since dat dream...i than realize...
how mux *** was meant to be...for me
and yet i'm happy...
thank you for makin my day....
i mish you though...but let fate come it's way
let me wait...till rain falls...
to show how mux...this emotion had arose...
i keep thinkin abt you....
like tat song...
can't take my mind off you...
yet i have not start my revision...soon i will....economics n accounts...2 in 1...i will survived this
and soon i will partyyyyyyy..........workin on thrusday till saturday...goin out with family on sunday...but i can't misss my rugby...my friendly matches...let me see....if *** comin...haHa i can't deny it....*** is comin....can't wait...

bsm....paper

2005-02-01T16:36:00.000+08:00

elo..i just came back from skool....had to send ct first to the road to take a cab..she was having her first day of menses....so yeah as usual she is weak..hehehehe k me n dian give her a card and hersey's kisses...hehehehe hope she like it..so da paper just now was like.....erm partly i can do it..insyallah la...so yeah went to da library...and pick this book from the shelves..i borrow it and i'm into it....about TRUE CRIME....damn it is so horrifying..and...ermmm gruesome...i will share some parts of it later....about an artist....poisoning twelve....people and eventually they died...errr....an artist can do tat....wat about me? hahahaha....
yahoo sunday i'm goin jb with my mum n bro insyallah...i already get my pay by than...can pamper myself with luxuries that i want..but before that i have to pay off my bills first...da most important thang.....i mish my rugby..but yet...errr...sometimes i feel left out when i go... i don know what i have done worng? is it because i don have da full attendance? but yet it's because of the team that i decided not to go...i don know...who am i? arghhhh..msg hakym..but ntahla kalo die malas nak layan ape leh uat kan...da la i cannot be botha thinkin abt stuff...i need to study though...arghhh.....damn freaking stress up..here....i think i shall end my blog here...maybe later at nite i will update again...

i love these songs.,....

2005-02-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

OST-CLOSER

Artist: Raghav Song Title: This Can'T Be Right
Album: [Buy " " CD]

Who am i x 5
ohhhhhhyo who am i, nayla boss,
i keep it tight guess we got the raghav on the mike
gimme the light, against the flame, 2play

2play:i know i shudnt but i got to see you tonighti
pick you up around nine,
but i swear that this can't happen no more,
cos when im looking in my babies eyes
i can't bare to tell her more lies
i gotta be stronger now then i was before
but when u hold me girl its so real
im feeling things 4 u i can't feel
i no i shouldn't stay but girl i just can't leave

chorus:
this can't b right but it doesn't feel so wrong
but when i'm all alone,
im thinking of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you thats on my mind (my mind)
but she's still in my life (yo)
but your the one thats stands by my side

i wanna let go but there's somrthing that makes me hold on (tell em)
but baby this just can't go on,
and we're better off with nobody knows
i never forget we would of lasted so long
so perfect but girl its so wrong
cos i got some body waiting at home
but when you hold me girl its so real
im feeling things for you i can't feel
i know i shudn't stay but girl i just can't leave

chorus:this can't be right but it doesn't feel so wrong (so wrong)
but when im all alone (all alone)
im thinkin of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you that's on my mind
but she's still in my life (my life)
but your the one that stands by my side

who-a blast er blasts who blasts you
its got a concicense like ooo
im gonna get mine you know i don't really care
but i got a soft spot for your girl right there
hate to be the mistress aint tryin to be the wife
got a hubby here so we gotta keep it tight
keep it on the hush on the low or woteva
aint no competition i could tell her to do better

girl you know i can't,
there's to much to lose
its you that i want but, put yourslef in her shoes
it hurts to think if she only knew
what'd be on her mind,
what she'd be going throughhhhhh

chorus:this cant b right but it dusnt feel so wrong
but when i'm all alone im thinkin of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you that's on my mind
but she still in my life
but your the one that stands by my side (ut oh ut oh ut oh)

x3this can't be right

Haff to bezero 4, yonayla, 2play ohyeayo i'm dun!!

ermmm....

2005-02-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

now i can't sleep and hearin songs from raghav..a british singer. before that was hearin songs from damien rice. damn freaking great songs. i just love his songs. and i love watchin the movie CLOSER i think my bro regretted buyin that dvd cause i've been like watchin it almost everyday...but i'm just addicted to da looks of julia roberts and just imagine she making love with jude law..and orgasm...hahahahahaha wat da hell am i thinkin...
i think i'm just suck at rugby. maybe i have not been keepin my fitness to the level which i was suppose to be...ermmmm....maybe due to some stress, workload and smokin...but i've quit and it is for real....i swaer it wont happen no more. i want to change and have a [positive attitude... this saturday ihave frindly matches...insyallah i will play well.. maybe it's time for me to like pray? i don know...i'm not so sure...arghh....niway meet my mates just now it was like a best time i had with them. went to ikea togetha shop sum stuff.... i don know what to get for ct... mayeb da sewater that she wants? i don know...i really have no damn fuckin idea....err....let me think about it...and decide wat i wan tto do...k i have not study for my theory of economics and i'm like feeling happy..but i'm very worried...i don know i just couldn't concerntrate my mind keep thinking..abt some otha personal stuff.....i think too much that i have neglected studies... arghhhh...i feeel like sprintin to my last breathe....now i'm hearin songs from refugees... killing me softly...damn she is killin me here....argghhhhhh i'm stressing myself too much i think. i have to change myself...i will go to skool everyday, i will got owork everyday, i will go to rugby every training..but yet i feel lonely in that skool...no one whom i can share my secrets with and stuff...maybe it is not the time yet...........

hello

2005-01-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

hello sorrie i'm back afta a long time i have not been updatin my baldy blog...ermm...well skool reopens..and yeah i am having loads of fun. with rugby goin on...dan..i am closer to my classmates..and i love them very much..that is da truth..hehehe okie i have taken some pictures of us..ermm..i wi ll try to pu tit on air..hahahaha so now i'm in da class kinda bored though everybody is slackin..but i'm not i am active....hahahahhaa so yeah now..i'm more focus and yeah finally i went to KL...damn it was da most fun thing ever hahaha i spend RM700...and it was totally worth it..heheheh i bought loads of stuff..and i am damn satisfied....k i think i will update soon..i mish ya..

i'm back

2004-10-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

hello i'm back again diggin in dis blog after i have abandone it for sometime...kinda bored rite now..well nothin much to write i'm just tired yeah after skool went to work than back to home..and homework and stuff...haiz damn sickenin goin to study soon k i think ireally ran out of ideas wat to talk too..so yeah life goin smooth..and oke..no bumpies...

siiiggg.....

2004-09-29T17:15:00.000+08:00

yeah....i'm back again..akrg nie aku tengah borin takd benda aku nak buat. damn i think i have nothing much to talk about rite now..just tat i catch dodgeball..and it was damn funny...hahaha i had fun watchin it..

helo 'm back again

2004-09-28T11:49:00.000+08:00

okie harlow...and guess wat today is my it test and i was late for it. damn!!!!!! really feel like i am goin to have fever but who cares. so yeah now i'm having lunch with ct and dian. kinda bored actually. so today i wil be working. ntah ah kinda tirin i think but 2mrw i'm goin to be in skol for only two hours. so lucky. mayb tomorrow play pool not sure cannot confirm about that. i'm bored rite now. anyway i miss my bitches and asshole. later i will be meeting them. i will meet wan i think at work. than my bitch i don know when i can meet them. i miss them didn't call them yesterday. maybe i will call them later at nite. maybe today wanna play pool. don know lah haven make up my mind yet. i'm so bord here everybody is mindin their own business. mayb 2mrw i will be wearin my vans shoe. hahaha...zach already wore his new shoe. so tmrw is my turn than. hahahaaa.......anyway today workin damn that muthafuckinbitch will be there...damn fuck asshole....arghhhhhwateva......so yeah i'm kinda tired and i miss my someone...hahaha whoeva it is let it be a secret only to myself and myself alone. i think that's it take care.....a

FuCk..HaTe TOdAy

2004-09-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

HeLo i'm back again yeha i just came back from my goddamnmuthafuckin workplace. and it was totally in a mess just now. i mean the cleanin was damn fucking messy. when i came i have to survey the chips..and i did invite sum customers in our store than afta that i had to do that that job for like 5 hours straight. damn i could like beg on my knees pleadin that i should have not some to work jus now. and da bitch was relaxin inside enjoyin da aircon. damn hate you bitch damn i hate you really. i went to brreak and i called aidil and we chatted for a while. he was pissed at da bitch and jason. aidil informed yeo and yeo called me. had a little chat with him than afta that da bitch took over my place. i was damn thankin god for doing that to me. i had a hell of a time spendin my left over time in the stall doin the job. HAHAHA padan muke ko beruk haha. than khalid sms me...da lama tak jumpe dier..cam mane ntah..tanya la tonite not goin out.of course no..but sometimes i go clubbin..he was like...pergi tak ajak seh rabak ah gal..hehehe he is single...hhehehe than ariffin my cuzz pun msg me.hehe we msg each other for a while than afta that...i was feelin kinda relieve...coz i don know why. ernie called me..we chatted for a while..hehehe miss u bitch....i miss you too son of bitches....i love you guys..i think that's allniters....